I was no longer "comfortably numb." I was "uncomfortably aware." However, the here and now were still foreign to me, and I would have to learn how to cope with my newly recovered sense of awareness.
I definitely relate. I had a similar experience of triaging to survive, now I’m deep in a process of unspooling the pain and learning to hold myself with compassion. Meditation and mindfulness was/is a life saver for me. Keep up the beautiful writing.
Definitely relate to some parts. Unmasking preceded a long period of (autistic?) burnout, fatigue, pain with no apparent cause, lost my purpose, depression fog. Hyper aware of bodily sensations. What even am I? Why is my whole body rigidly tense? Bloods are "fine". Am thinking about EMDR and somatic work but am scared and skeptical. Looking forward to the "continued" on this one. And trying to get on the subscription bandwagon. Thanks Lyric, you're doing great things.
I definitely relate. I’m in my fifties, and only now making these realizations. My adult children are being diagnosed with ADHD and autism. I’m looking at my parents, myself and I’m thinking of the labels we’ve been given and have given ourselves. Anxious, depressed, shy, brilliant, absent minded, lazy, quirky. And I know. I know there is something else that makes more sense. I share your phobia of doctors so I spend years diagnosing and treating myself before seeking traditional medical help. It’s always a last resort for me.
Hi, I have just discovered you and am working on finding the money for a paid subscription. I feel like my 8-year old daughter could be you, and I am desperate to learn anything and everything that can help me to help her avoid any of the pain and suffering that seems her fate in this world!
I definitely relate. I had a similar experience of triaging to survive, now I’m deep in a process of unspooling the pain and learning to hold myself with compassion. Meditation and mindfulness was/is a life saver for me. Keep up the beautiful writing.
Definitely relate to some parts. Unmasking preceded a long period of (autistic?) burnout, fatigue, pain with no apparent cause, lost my purpose, depression fog. Hyper aware of bodily sensations. What even am I? Why is my whole body rigidly tense? Bloods are "fine". Am thinking about EMDR and somatic work but am scared and skeptical. Looking forward to the "continued" on this one. And trying to get on the subscription bandwagon. Thanks Lyric, you're doing great things.
I definitely relate. I’m in my fifties, and only now making these realizations. My adult children are being diagnosed with ADHD and autism. I’m looking at my parents, myself and I’m thinking of the labels we’ve been given and have given ourselves. Anxious, depressed, shy, brilliant, absent minded, lazy, quirky. And I know. I know there is something else that makes more sense. I share your phobia of doctors so I spend years diagnosing and treating myself before seeking traditional medical help. It’s always a last resort for me.
Hi, I have just discovered you and am working on finding the money for a paid subscription. I feel like my 8-year old daughter could be you, and I am desperate to learn anything and everything that can help me to help her avoid any of the pain and suffering that seems her fate in this world!
Hey Emily, thank you for your support.
One thing I wanted to do this year is start offering an option for people with financial struggles (because I TOTALLY know how that is).
Whenever you are ready, please use the link below to get your subscription at a discount, because I don't want money to be an obstacle to people:
https://neurodivergentrebel.substack.com/LowIncomeDiscount
I hope this helps,
- Lyric
I absolutely relate! Every single word.